Trip to Singapore,totally out of control

Yesterday i spanked Lawrence at least 20 times, totally put of control. Maybe it’s because he often ignored me and did sth like running around and even out of sight. maybe it’s because I’m still sick and have sore throat. maybe because i felt finally got the chance to discipline him without my parents stopping me. No matter which one, i fel like I’m completely out of control And just wanted to spank him instead of telling him to stop. I became a grumpy mum and the last thing i want do is to make him a bear kid. But it seemed the more spank he got, the less he cared about it and my words.

 I should talk to him before going out today and make him understand i dont always want to spank him or yell at him. 

Yesterday was really a disaster cuz They were always chasing each other . We had to stop them again and again. Besides the suitcases and the stroller were also a trouble.

The worst thing is that Lawrence pooed on his pants on the metro and we had to get off the train to look for the bathroom to deal with his poo poo pants. However, Singapore is too tidy to have bathrooms or even garbage everywhere. Now i start to miss every dirty public bathroom in shenzhen, because they can be found easily everywhere in spite of the dirtiness. The most thing i miss is david, because he can always calm me down and clean the mess. Hope everything will be fine for the rest 5 days.

Never will wanna a second child any more. Seeing them jumping on the hotal sofa and being yelled by the staff made me really sick and embarrassed. After all, we Are not who we are. We are representing chinese here.

Still Lawrence got a little improvement that he likes to wave hello and goodbye to the locals and even says thank you. Really wish next time come here with david And Lawrence alone so he could be exposed more to English. 

The lucky thing is that he almost didn’t yell or make noise or kick others’ seats on the airplane. Nor did he reluctantly buckle the seat belt. After all, i have told him the story about the airport hundreds of  times and he seemed really obsessed with all the trucks and airplanes there. Also i found my weakness that i rely too much on the book instead of explaining everything in reality to Lawrence. Education should come

from daily life.

I should act more like his friend rather than a doctrinal parent.